Shah is hoping for another baby, I knew it deep in his heart-he does... But being the sweetest husband as he is, he never pressure me to conceive again.. He knew how bad my first experience was.. He was there when I was in pain, screaming and grasping the bed frame... I swear I can still feel the pain I endured 3 years ago... Lately, those scenes continuously keep playing in my head..Vividly! Don't get me wrong, I love Harris, I cherish all the moment spent with him while raising him.. No doubt about that.. But I can't stop obsessing over the day I gave birth.. I never share this with anyone.. Not even with my best friends.. I don't wanna be taken as a weak woman.. I wanna be a strong woman.. I wanna be strong like my mak..
This pregnancy thingy is currently hit my mind because my sil is about to give birth.. Her EDD is on 1st December.. Yup in 3 weeks time or less.. I felt nervous more than anything in this world.. Knowing the pain she has to feel soon.. I'm so scared. I really hope that she and the baby will be okay.. Please God..
Well right now I have to tell myself that, at the end of the day, I have to remember I'm one of the luckiest mothers on earth that can look into my beautiful and healthy 3 year old son. To be able to touch and kiss him. Yeah, I'm blessed with this reward, ya Allah.. Thank you. =)
This is Harris' photo when he was 6 months old.. He's so chubby, just like Clinique Chubby Stick..Eh? Hehehe... His mak long used to call him 'mox' since he was so chubby back then... But he's so active nowadays that even he eats a lot, burning those calories in his body is like cracking a nut for him.. Mommy jeles ni anak.... =p
ps:Yeah.. I wouldn't mind to have 2 more children... Hehe
