Sebenarnya aku rasa hidup aku sekarang ni berada di bawah paras selesa..Biarpun aku tinggal dengan mak aku dan pada sesetengah orang benda tu akan cukup buat dia rasa selesa tapi tak pada aku.. Mak sesetengah orang memang akan redha dan tolong anak dia tapi bukan mak aku..Basically, I still have to listen to her sarcasm everyday.. Listen to her belittling me at any chance she gets..You know, how annoying it is for her watching me unemployed yet.I'm 30 now so..
Well she succeed.. I do feel little.. In fact I'm starting to feel like me and Harris have becoming burden to her..Despite the fact that I gave her some pocket money and I am paying for the house maid..I guess she didn't see that as contributing..
Sometimes I do feel like quitting my part time job, and my study and live peacefully with my husband in our home in Johor..But then it will just brings me back to square one..To nothing..
Mak daily's routine is blaming me for quitting my job with JPA few years back. She said I'm a stupid person for quitting my work with KPM, like working for government defines successful person to her..Well, really... I want to see her lives there for at least 1 week..I want her to taste what I have to face there..The absurd workloads, the student, the town and the mentality of people living there..Seriously..Try to live there alone with a toddler- without a husband, without family and obviously without life.. Please google Simpang Durian, Jelebu now and be amazed with the findings.. Freaking hate that place! I never feel sorry for quitting my job..That was the best decision I've made in my life..
I wish that I could hit the refresh button and I would feel better about this whole situation!
ps:I know I should respect her and all, I do.. but I don't think I could live with her anymore.. She's taking my insanity one bite at a time, hence, I really need to plan for back up plan right now.. ASAP!